A Cold Water Plunge

Bookkeeping and accountability
Is very much like a cold water plunge.
It brings me into immediate contact
With a cold harsh reality
That is at the same time
Shocking and invigorating.
Holy cow! What a reality check
To face the unrelenting numbers.
But I love it. 
Every expense, however minute, counted.
Every dollar added up and carefully budgeted
With single minded intent toward wise investment.
It turns out that I don’t make as much money as I thought!
And that makes me disinclined to waste a single minute.
I can’t afford to. They are too prescious.
Most of my life was laissez faire.
I trusted God to provide 
And he did.
But this new thing of facing the numbers
Is also precious. The God of Truth
Is also in the numbers.
The cold water.
He is in the miracles.
But he is also in the math.
He is in the wandering wilderness.
And he is in the rocky soil we must plow
When we reach the promised land.